It is not the sound of a voice that has never known pain
But the pain of a voice that has never known sound.
We melt into the stillness we can hear.
She is the stillness we can't hear.
Wear bright red, my friend,
For that noisy voice my eyes are drenched in the blood of your
tribute to a bdw. (black deaf woman)
Place your feet in the familiar steps of your life, Settled into prints left behind before you came. Prints so fitting and comfortable because they are your own. Haven't you ever felt like you've been here before?
Delayed, Each step in stark solitude, The children play. Delusional dreaming of the day they'll be as one. Their hands clasped, But their hopes empty... Each steps further into mischance, Hopeless seeming. Lost little girl wonders, Where have the tears gone? Little sense, Her hands clench on empty air, And she watches her father-friend fall.
Heaven's heart has been brought to me, In a form I never thought to see, Her captivating smile, her beautiful face, A curvaceous angel, flying full of grace. Gentle eyes glow over an aching smile, But a moment to forget what I once held vile. In only a moment, all pain I withheld Fled me in love when the angel I held. All evil betrayed me in one warm embrace All wrong was now right as I looked at her face The darkness has fled me, to my strange delight, Her soft glowing skin has filled me with light. Still not forgotten, my terrible vow Which forces me to leave, return to hell now. My lips portray promises to leave me a friend. I try to go home but find I ascend.
A wicked heart have now I found, As I wandered forlorn above the ground, Was love I was seeking, to heaven or bust, My love now betrays me, for I have found lust. So wickedly slender, so evilly lost. When I saw her form rising, I cared not the cost. I knew what I wanted, both then and there My legs to entrap her, my hands in her hair. All goodness betrayed me in a lusty grasp I pressed myself to her and heard my own gasp The light is now tainted, useless, defiled My lust has sprang forward, energetic and wild. Still not forgotten, my chastity fair So I unclasp my legs, untangle her hair. For a long lusty night, I'd've forsaken it all, I try to go homeward to find that I fall.
What brings me to this ceaseless orbit Making rings around your fierce immolation? My sun in the heavens brightly shining... I can not seem to break away, Caught in the well of your attraction In the glory of your gravity. Nor would I want to succumb To the centrifugal force of my fragile esteem, The aimless wanderings of my tired mind, My hapless bodies. I turn to face you, Sometimes reluctantly, pulled towards you and like to be the death of me, I turn away, too engrossed in my rapturous devotion. Never for long, I turn again to face you, Starved for the warmth of your embrace.
No simple border this, That edge between life and living. One moment high upon the cliffs, The next in a cold dark hell... Is there anything worth feeling in a world Where all love becomes pain? Ambivalence, apathy, listlessness, That is me. Do I care enough to even write? Why would I want you to know how I feel? I wouldn't want anyone to know if I felt like this. So I drag my world of light and laughter, Love and feeling, Through the mystic shredder. All my sister spirits cannot help me, This life revolved around me, Although they try, They find I die. If there is no way for me to go Except from joy to pain, Then better that I go from joy to nothing, To nothing where No one hears me calling, No one heeds the Calling. No one can, my Mother lays beneath my shattered corpse. All I cling to shatters, Nothing matters.
Double beat Love and heat Trembling touch Our fingers clutch Unwanted tease Weakened knees Entangling arms Irresistable charms Gleaming eye Both so shy Hand on cheek Kisses meek
Double beat
Pressed against me
Love and heat
Red rising to my cheeks
Trembling touch
We meet at last...
Our fingers clutch
I can but link to other's soul, Or body, or their mind The long hard road to other worlds Is the one I cannot find. Why is the endless passageway Forbidden for me to see? How can I get to another world If I am not yet free? What links a soul to body? What makes me want to hide? Where are the fruitful paths? Why haven't I yet cried? Take me with you, Caring Knight. My soul is weak, I have no sight. You have visions Whence I can't Or must I utter A witch's chant? To where, in the corridor, Does the wind blow? Inside does it rain? Are there inches of snow? Where would you find me, If I enter, too? How can I seek One as gifted as you? So, down the endless corridor, My weak soul trails, Through the gusts of wind And the beating of hails... And off to the left, Is the colorful wall. I take a step for it, But only to fall. I can follow you upwards, But I'm not so strong. My arms become tired, My breath becomes long. I cannot so travel, But to follow, I may. I cannot try to journey And not slip away. I am of the simple Healers Not 'Travellers or Seers: I remove the effects Of one too many beers. I can travel through a body, Maybe another land, But not the Endless Corridor... Where I cannot stand. So, how to find The forbidden passageway? For, in this world, We may not stay. And how to get there, Can we but hope? Perhaps I'll find A leading rope? But, as for now, Your guidance helps, To dream of forests And puppy yelps....
This was in the Marquis 1987, Lafayette H.S. literary magazine. Tevin's point of view of a knight on quest to slay a dragon...
Crouch thou, old friend. Wings at the ready, Bunch, then spring, To join the sky. Shoot upwards, Stroking slowly to rise, Catch a river to soar. Fold wings, diving, Pull out, Level to tree tops. Tilting, unbalancing, Spin on tip of right, Circle left. Scales a glitter, Catch the sun, Splaying it about, Reflections of gold. Horned head, Razor teeth, Claws, talons, Gouging at the air. In these moments thou art free, A soaring soul, But they beauty's captured, And my terror lessened, And my valor swept beyond me In a wash of thy wake. My sword dropped at my side At the show of a marvel such as you. And, though not at thy request, My quest is ignored.
I lay in the tomb,
Web-covered memories.
Spell-casting monsters,
Lurking in shadows,
Tossing their visions
Into the light.
Go to the curtains.
Monsters run deeper,
Fearing the blinding light
Which they know will come.
Draw open the curtains,
Haunting visions disappear.
I see through the window
The deeds of the day,
Yet at night I draw closed
The heavy-lace curtains.
The creatures return
To create nightmares
once more.
Do I hear you? Throbbing like your heart, Are you begging? It's drawing me to you. I want to answer, Distance is the obstacle... But we will overcome all. Do you feel me? Thumping like a drumbeat, I am begging. Drawing you to me. Will you answer, Though distance is between us... Will you overcome me? Are we running? Towards or away, Will we meet? Do you want me... To glide my fingers over you... Run my fingertips Through your hair? We meet, Two vehicles on a course Of understanding... Affection is our fuel And lust the pilot. Drive into me, So we may be one.
There is a man for whom I care, With stars in his eyes, and the wind in his hair, A wonderous love, a wonderful lover, How could I ever be with any other? There are those times he goes away, And some of us do fret and pray, That he'll find his way home to me This lonely soul within the Sea. A true-love he, I've said before, He held me then, but I need more... A name to hold, a name to hear; Name the things that I hold dear. For all the others, I can not bind, He's the only one within my mind! I pray each day he'll ask for me I'm a lonely soul beside the Sea. There is a man for whom I care, With moons in his eyes, and the night in his hair, A beautiful love, a perfect lover, I know for me there will be no other. *name withheld to protect identity.
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